On My Two Feet

This is it.

Or rather,

It Could Have Been It.

Man, the show was really amazing. Seeing how Michael Jackson did his rehearsals and how tight the band was together was awesome. Caught it together with the worship ministry at Vivo sitting in Gold Class on Sunday and it was like my first time sitting in Gold Class. It was such a virgin experience and when I sat into my seat I started playing with the controls for the chair, meddling with the controls to adjusting the seat from being an upright position to another.

It would have been a concert the world has never seen before if it wouldn’t have been his sudden death. All the new arrangements of his older songs, the dance moves and even right down to the new musicians which the director hired to play for Michael. Orianthi Panagaris was even playing for Michael and doing what she always does best.

In short, the movie was totally awesome man. I will definitely get the DVD, only if special features are available. If not… You know what I mean.

Zone C Steamboat outing was a blast and it was one of the best fellowship sessions I’ve ever had in a long while. I hardly ever went so hyper before in front of these people cause I’m always at the castle at the back of the audi doing what I do best most of the time. These people got shocked when they experienced who I am on the inside, that’s when I’m off duty. Talking to people like Su Ling was really amazing cause apparently I made her laugh till her stomach was pain.

I caught up with Mee Han and we started talking about the past, about things like how we used to fight PO (parental objection) years back. Reflecting, man, we used to be so radical fighting PO, being able to do all sorts of stuff just so that we could attend service and serve in ministries. I thank God for these people who pulled me along with them, otherwise I could have been left behind and walked out of the fight.

This month is really exciting. Looking forward to the end of the month. I’ll be working with Parachute band!

Tired

Why is it that every single time when I’m on the brink of breaking through to the next, higher level, the devil will always attack me at the same point.

It’s always the same problem that arises.

I wish that the devil can be in some form of a human so that I can do some krav maga moves on him and beat the crap out of him.

Not a single bit of it.

17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
2 Corinthians 5:17

Our Lord has never nurses our prejudices, He mortifies them, runs clean athwart them. We imagine that God has a special interest in our particular prejudices; we are quite sure that God will never deal with us as He has to deal with other people. “God must deal with other people in a very stern way, but of course He knows that my prejudices are all right.” We have to learn – “Not a bit of it!” Instead of God being on the side of our prejudices, He is deliberately wiping them out. It is part of our moral education to have our prejudices run straight across by His providence, and to watch how He does it. God pays no respect to anything we bring to Him. There is only one thing God wants of us, and that is our unconditional surrender.

When we are born again, the Holy Spirit begins to work His new creation in us, and there will come a time when there is not a bit of the old order left, the old solemnity goes, the old attitude to things goes and “all things are of God.” How are we going to get the life that has no lust, no self-interest, no sensitiveness to pokes, the love that is not provoked, that thinketh no evil, that is always kind? The only way is by allowing not a bit of the old life to be left; but only simple perfect trust in God, such trust that we no longer want God’s blessings, but only want Himself. Have we come to the place where God can withdraw His blessings and it does not affect our trust in Him? When once we see God at work, we will never bother our heads about things that happen, because we are actually trusting in our Father in Heaven Whom the world cannot see.

- My Utmost For His Highest – October 23

This whole devotional passage for today has changed my perspective of a verse which I’ve long known since 4 years ago.

Too quick to rejoice

Everything happens for a reason.

I rejoiced too quickly when I saw my timetable. Just the first day of the new semester and I know why I have a slack timetable. A slack timetable that comes with multiple content-heavy and project-heavy modules kind of balance things out.

Man, going through this semester will be a test of faith.

Jesus You increase, I decrease.

That Important Note

Love is a many splendored thing.

Love can be shown in many different ways.

It’s something nothing can buy.

I’d just like to appreciate you and thank you,
my friend.

Whereby shall I know?

25 At that time Jesus answered and said, “I thank You, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that You have hidden these things from the wise and prudent and have revealed them to babes.
Matthew 11:25

In spiritual relationship we do not grow step by step; we are either there or we are not. God does not cleanse us more and more from sin, but when we are in the light, walking in the light, we are cleansed from all sin. It is a question of obedience, and instantly the relationship is perfected. Turn away for one second out of obedience, and darkness and death are at work at once.

All God’s revelations are sealed until they are opened to us by obedience. You will never get them open by philosophy or thinking. Immediately you obey, a flash of light comes. Let God’s truth work in you by soaking in it, not by worrying in it. The only way you can get to know is to stop trying to find out and by being born again. Obey God in the thing He shows you, and instantly the next thing is opened up. One reads tomes on the work of the Holy Spirit, when five minutes of drastic obedience would make things are clear as a sunbeam.

“I suppose I shall understand these things someday!” You can understand them now. It is not study that does it, but obedience. The tiniest fragment of obedience, and heaven opens and the profoundest truths of God are yours straightaway. God will never reveal what you know already. Beware of becoming “wise and prudent.”

- Utmost For His Highest – October 10

This whole section of the devotional today is really encouraging. I am hours away from the Buidling Fund Pledge and this really enourages me to obey the amount that God has put inside my heart for months already. I don’t want to give out of emotions, but out of obedience. My pledge shall not be an emotional moment, but it shall be a moment of conviction and obedience.

I am determined to get my life back on track since I’m having my last week of holidays. My body clock has went haywire and I really need to get it wired back asap. Although my timetable’s not out yet but I have a real bad feeling about it. Probably no more early Wednesday afternoons, it will be just lessons from Monday to Friday, 8-5 kind of thing. There’s just so much to life than going to school every single weekday. I want to quickly get my driver’s license and get a car so at least I can get some life out of everything.

Anyway, these are just thoughts that I have early in the morning. To a great day ahead!

16 Hours

Lots of things have been happening and I’m kinda taking it down one by one at my own time. I finally logged in another entry, I see the reason why people talk about their 100th post, stuff like that cause they log in entries regularly. I, however, don’t do so and especially now with the tumblr thing going on, people seem to be updating their sites with multiple posts at a time, reblogging in that sense.

This shall be the place for me to keep my standard of English constant, with the effort of improving it of course, rather than just let it drop like as though it’s jumping off the Grand Canyon. I’ve realised that I can’t really write in Mandarin anymore, I actually nearly forgot how to write my own Chinese name after I entered the education system and left the Secondary school days when Mandarin was compulsory. I can’t write a proper English composition now, these are all the downsides of becoming a Polytechnic student, especially when you enter the Engineering faculty. We converse in Engineering terms now, no longer in English or Mandarin.

DPA chalet was a blast, literally cause of meeting up of the usual people. I had a couple of drinks but the amazing thing was that I was nowhere near the feeling drunk, considering that was my first time I had drinks that heavy. There’s no denying that coffee tasted better than all the drinks, but it wasn’t that bad either. Absolut diluted with sprite, I guess that’s really weak compared to what heavy drinkers will drink. Before any controversy starts, no, I’m not backsliding, Christians can drink but we can’t get drunk. Fullstop.

I love how Pastor Kong puts it in this way,

Abstinence was never an issue in the Old Testament, New Testament, early church or the Reformation. There is never any direct prohibition of the use of wine in the Bible. But anything done in excess is wrong. Moderation is the watchword (Phil. 4:5 KJV). In this case, the Bible permits drinking but at the same time, discourages drunkenness. Besides, the use of wine is dependent upon the conscience and the sensitivities of others. It is not to be indulged in if it will lead others to drink against their conscience (Rom. 14:19-21).

In regards to the drinking thing, sometimes the world is right about certain things though. They say the Christians are out of touch with the world, they can actually be right. I can’t believe I didn’t know about the China man drinking game. The world doesn’t want to mix with Christians who are out of touch, Christians who seem to be from another planet and came to earth with a different faith from them. Salt of the earth, Light of the world, that doesn’t mean we pull ourselves away from the world and no longer be relevant.

Well, lesser and lesser people from my batch came but it was great to see the newer batch of people planning their own event. The thing that sucks will be that the staff in school doesn’t seem to believe in us and thus we don’t get the proper treatment like every other clubs and societies in school do. It seems pretty stupid when a certain staff gets promoted cause our batch performed really well in our studies corporately, and that certain staff didn’t teach us or anything near that. You see, office politics is frustrating and what’s more frustrating is that you know you can’t run from it. It’s going to get you sooner or later, so, good luck to you and me and the rest of the world who hates office politics.

I found a piece of paper a while ago and I decided to scan it with my new MFC printer at home:

I found the quote online and stored it in my previous phone and somehow my dear dear friend Cherie managed to find it and personalise it. Haha, I hope she’s no longer disappointed in me though.

I will definitely have a unique workspace that looks like this in the future.

Well, of course it’s going to be bigger than this. I can’t wait to get my own apartment, because I want it to look the way it’s supposed to look like.

Come on,

The Singapore Army and all of its divisions, may it be the SAF, the Navy, the Air force or whatever there are, are all irritating me at one go.

Maybe it’s time they should really get the message that not all Singaporean guys would like to sign on and ‘fulfill their fullest potential’ with them. Sending me pamphlets with all the attractive benefits and whatsoever about signing on isn’t really going to change many people’s lives.

I live for a couple of things, and freedom is one of them. Why would I do something so stupid, like signing away my freedom?

They even send me a stupid toy and asking me to put baking powder inside and put the toy in a bucket of water so I can watch the submarine toy sink from the top to the bottom.

That will be one of the childiest marketing idea I’ve come across. Do I look like I’m eight years old to you?