Don’t stop believin’

Just a small town girl
Livin’ in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin’ anywhere

Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin’ anywhere

A singer in a smoky room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin’ anything to roll the dice just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Don’t Stop Believin’ – Journey

Love my current desktop wallpaper. Love that surreal surroundings.

Sometimes that makes me wanna run away from this fast-paced society and just disappear from it for a while. Take a trip to some place unknown and settle down for a while. Every single day for me now passes by just by the snap of fingers. I wake up in the morning, and the next thing I know, it’s time for bed. I can’t seem to have enough time to do the things that I want to do.

Ah, my driving instructor just booked another TP date for me but it clashes with my exams. I hope he can get a better date and time for me. I must nail it this time round. I must nail it. The previous tester already pushed my limit and made me wanna thrash him in the car, but I know I’m way better than that. Not worth it man, I’m gonna get my license the fair and square way.

Upper Room

Here I stand a child of Yours
Broken and in need of You
Break these chains and wash my guilt away

Healer of my brokenness
My weary soul will find its rest
You are my strength, the lifter of my head

You’re greater than my yesterdays
You hold me close today
You’re the Lord of my tomorrows
My heart will always say

Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me
Called me as Your own

Lord, I feel Your presence as I’m typing this post right now.

I thank You, for the awesome life that you have given me. I indeed was once lost, but now I’m found. I look forward to the future, where I’ll do amazing works in Your name. I’m just 2 weeks into the new year, and You have already shown me lots of things regarding the things that I do.

I’m here, to show the whole world that a 19 year old can glorfiy God in a magnificent way. The youths of this generation are not called to just stay back and do nothing, but we’re called to do great works in the Lord’s name. Increase my anointing, Lord. Holy Spirit, I pray that I’ll flow with You in all the things that I do. Lead me in the things that I do, that I may lead the people into worship with the sound that I produce. Let the sound that I produce pull people into the presence of God, that they may dwell in His presence and not want to leave it at all.

God, You’re indeed greater than my yesterdays. You pull me out of my mistakes, that I do not dwell on it but instead learn from it. You hold me close today, You never let me go.

God, You’re indeed the Lord of my tomorrows, Your destiny for me is greater than all that I can ever imagine. My heart will always say.

2010

The 1st weekend of 2010.

The whole of 2009 was an awesome year and I grew so much within a year. 2009 made me realise what a potential I had in God and the whole year I was working hard trying to acheive as much as possible. I really thank God for putting my in a church with such great Pastors who really love and believe in me, and also leaders who work really hard just to make sure I’m able to learn as much as possible.

Sometimes it’s really easy for someone to step into church and just enjoy the fruits of the labour of the people behind the scenes. I used to be one of them, until I explored my spiritual gifts and made a decision to use them to serve God. It was not until I joined the race together with the people who work behind the scenes that I realised how much time and effort they have to put in just so that each and every weekend service we have could be so awesome.

I joined the race with the rest in Operations in 2006, and I have never left my place since then. It pains me to see people taking and receiving from the service, but they’re never giving back. People always ask me why I spend so much time in church serving, and there was even a point where my parents actually believed that I should be paid for contributing my time and energy. These people have failed to understand my purpose in what I’m doing.

I’m a man of vision and dreams. You take that element away from me, I’m as good as an empty shell. Pastors have trained and discipled me to be a man who can navigate in the spiritual terrain. As I grow closer to God, I was amazed by how big my God is, I was amazed by how I can never out-think God. A FOH Engineer of a congregation of 1500, and my Pastors are already seeing in the spiritual realm of me being a FOH of a congregation of 3000, 5000, 10,000.

And on the first week of 2010, I’ve managed to achieve a great sound over the weekend services. Not by my human might, but by the Spirit of The Lord. Obstacles may come my way, but I still love my life. And I love the God who reigns over my life.

Psalm 40
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.
1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.

2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.

3 He has put a new song in my mouth—
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the LORD.

4 Blessed is that man who makes the LORD his trust,
And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.

5 Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful works
Which You have done;
And Your thoughts toward us
Cannot be recounted to You in order;
If I would declare and speak of them,
They are more than can be numbered.

6 Sacrifice and offering You did not desire;
My ears You have opened.
Burnt offering and sin offering You did not require.

7 Then I said, “Behold, I come;
In the scroll of the book it is written of me.

8 I delight to do Your will, O my God,
And Your law is within my heart.”

9 I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness
In the great assembly;
Indeed, I do not restrain my lips,
O LORD, You Yourself know.

10 I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart;
I have declared Your faithfulness and Your salvation;
I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth
From the great assembly.

11 Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O LORD;
Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me.

12 For innumerable evils have surrounded me;
My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up;
They are more than the hairs of my head;
Therefore my heart fails me.

13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me;
O LORD, make haste to help me!

14 Let them be ashamed and brought to mutual confusion
Who seek to destroy my life;
Let them be driven backward and brought to dishonor
Who wish me evil.

15 Let them be confounded because of their shame,
Who say to me, “Aha, aha!”

16 Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You;
Let such as love Your salvation say continually,
“The LORD be magnified!”

17 But I am poor and needy;
Yet the LORD thinks upon me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
Do not delay, O my God.

I consider it a delight, to do God’s will.

Assumptions

It’s funny how parents start to think of their child as both parties gets older year by year.

My dad just asked me to invite my girlfriend for dinner with the family.

The thing really off about it is this: I don’t have one.

Insights

I just went through another week, but this week’s different.

This week is unlike all the other weeks of the year which I’ve been through.

It’s great to have hindsight, so that we can look back on our mistakes and learn from them. Having foresight is even better, I have visions and dreams of what will happen in the future. What’s best of all, is insight. Self-reflection. Man, I hold on to Pastors’ teachings dearly cause they are the ones who help mold my character.

It’s amazing how the speed of growth which one grows in the ministry is very much dependent on he himself, and as well as his relationship with God.

1 Corinthians 1:26-31
Glory Only in the Lord

26 For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. 27 But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; 28 and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, 29 that no flesh should glory in His presence. 30 But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God—and righteousness and sanctification and redemption— 31 that, as it is written, “He who glories, let him glory in the LORD.”

It’s so easy to grow weary when you rely on your own strength. However, when you walk in the favour of God, breakthroughs are easy.

For God has given me the spiritual gifts of a FOH Engineer, I shall use it to glorify Him, and Him only. He who glories, let him glory in the LORD.

Now, an FOH of 2000.
Soon, FOH of 5000.
Future, FOH of tens of thousands.

Man, I just love this. Now I can do my adjustments in any part of the auditorium.

Smile when there isn’t a reason to

Sometimes it’s really easy to feel tired when you’re doing lots of routine work and you’re always under stress whenever you’re on it.

Sometimes it’s really easy to just give up and just walk away.

Really, at the end of the day, it’s the people whom you fellowship with keeps you going, keeps you running.

Thanks for lifting me up during the day. Real women lift the men up so that we, the men, can rise up.

And all the real men say, amen!

My Funny Mother

Prayed for the salvation of my family today during leaders’ meeting and when I came home I talked to my mum.

Me: What’s the netting for? (Mum pulled out a shorts which was in a netting from the washing machine)

Mum: It’s to protect the clothes.

Me: Protect in what way? You put it in and it gets churned in the washing machine with the rest of the clothes.

Mum: Protect in a way that it won’t die by getting trampled upon by the other clothes.

This is the kind of answers I get when I ask my mum questions.

On My Two Feet

This is it.

Or rather,

It Could Have Been It.

Man, the show was really amazing. Seeing how Michael Jackson did his rehearsals and how tight the band was together was awesome. Caught it together with the worship ministry at Vivo sitting in Gold Class on Sunday and it was like my first time sitting in Gold Class. It was such a virgin experience and when I sat into my seat I started playing with the controls for the chair, meddling with the controls to adjusting the seat from being an upright position to another.

It would have been a concert the world has never seen before if it wouldn’t have been his sudden death. All the new arrangements of his older songs, the dance moves and even right down to the new musicians which the director hired to play for Michael. Orianthi Panagaris was even playing for Michael and doing what she always does best.

In short, the movie was totally awesome man. I will definitely get the DVD, only if special features are available. If not… You know what I mean.

Zone C Steamboat outing was a blast and it was one of the best fellowship sessions I’ve ever had in a long while. I hardly ever went so hyper before in front of these people cause I’m always at the castle at the back of the audi doing what I do best most of the time. These people got shocked when they experienced who I am on the inside, that’s when I’m off duty. Talking to people like Su Ling was really amazing cause apparently I made her laugh till her stomach was pain.

I caught up with Mee Han and we started talking about the past, about things like how we used to fight PO (parental objection) years back. Reflecting, man, we used to be so radical fighting PO, being able to do all sorts of stuff just so that we could attend service and serve in ministries. I thank God for these people who pulled me along with them, otherwise I could have been left behind and walked out of the fight.

This month is really exciting. Looking forward to the end of the month. I’ll be working with Parachute band!

Tired

Why is it that every single time when I’m on the brink of breaking through to the next, higher level, the devil will always attack me at the same point.

It’s always the same problem that arises.

I wish that the devil can be in some form of a human so that I can do some krav maga moves on him and beat the crap out of him.